The Single Purpose

True love. We look for it in all the wrong places. We grow up hearing fairytales, desiring to be the girl who gets the prince. We dream and wait, praying to God to send him now, to end our loneliness and dry our tears, so that we may begin happily ever after. We even let ourselves settle for less than the best because we just get so tired of waiting, and the ache of loneliness becomes unbearable. We ask God, “Well, where is he? I am happy for my friends who have found love, but where is my Prince Charming?” All you ladies who have ever wondered where he is, this blog’s for you. For some of us, it is our vocation right now to be single women of God. Be single with purpose. Stop settling for less than God’s will for you.

I am one of you, and have been my whole life—22 (almost 23) years. Ever since I was a little girl who first believed in fairytales, my greatest desire has been to fall in love, get married, and have a family. So set was I on this desire, that I found myself constantly blurring the line between my dreams and reality. I lived in my own world, where the boy—a friend that I cared deeply about—just needed to grow up and mature a little bit before we could begin our happily ever after. I knew this couldn’t be right, but I held onto the dream, afraid that if I let him go, there’d be no one else. Eventually, I had fallen so far that I was drowning in my dreams. I didn’t know who I was anymore. I said goodbye to my friend. It hurt more than anything I have ever experienced, and I am afraid I hurt him, but I just wasn’t strong enough to be his friend anymore.

After four of the most painful months of my life, God graced me with clarity and understanding. He showed me that the reason I wasn't strong enough was because I was clinging to my own will and relying on my own strength. In the quiet of the night, He—True Love Himself!— whispered to me, “You are Mine.” Suddenly, I saw myself as a five-year-old again, coming home from summer Bible school and telling my mom, “I stood on a rock and I gave my life to Jesus!” I realized in that moment that that is at the center of my very being: I am His, first and forever.

We are His, First and Forever.